Relief

Sometimes having grit takes its toll mentally and physically. Sometimes being tenacious and goal driven is a huge invisible burden. Sometimes our bodies just say quietly to let something go while other times it screams NO! ENOUGH!

When I signed up to run the Berlin Marathon I was doing just fine physically and mentally. I had found my new slower pace and was absolutely ok with it. 

The training cycle for Berlin was looking to be all routine. But, it wasn't. Instead, my left knee quietly set me back. Only to have the right knee raise its voice enough for me to listen and alter goals. I was going to do it though. I was going to get a cortisone shot in my right knee a couple weeks before the race and run/walk those 26.2 miles on September 21st. 

BUT... my knee ballooned up on Sunday and again on Monday and I was hobbling again. No running. Would I walk the dam thing? No. I wouldn't.

Like a deep breath that I felt deep in my soul, I let it go. I let go the idea of forcing the Berlin Marathon to happen and get that 19th marathon medal. Did I let running go....Forever? I do not know. 

I am still getting the cortisone shot and going to Berlin to cheer and enjoy. The knee will get attention when we get back.

What a relief!