And There You Are

Mothers' Day 2019. Here I am. My children are in college and independent yet not. I have changed so much, yet in some ways, not at all. So here I am....

What a school year! Wow! I am humbled. But, that is what the state tests do. They humble. These kids are trying so hard. They always do, but I always feel like I was not enough.... I am not.

If only I could go out for an easy 6 mile run..... then I would be me. Why am I here again? Why didn't I listen to the voice inside that said running Boston would break me? It did. Mile 14 on Monday, April 15... I was done. I want my leg back! I don't need to run far or fast. I just need to run.

I will be back running, but I wonder when. I feel lost in the midst of having so much.Why does running ground me so much?

The month of May is like the last 3 miles of a marathon. It is hard to explain unless you have been there, but it is a true test of character and will mixed with an sense of joy and celebration. They are exhausting on so many levels... both teaching and the marathon.

I can do this. Just dig deep
and get it done.

Where ever you are, you are.