But....

Anyone who knows me knows I am not a typical mother.  But, what is a typical mother? I don't know. I never had one....a typical one, that is. Maybe that is good and maybe that is well, I won't say bad.  All I can say is... I love my children.  I would do anything for them, but... and it is a big BUT.  I am not,was not, and will not be the mom who waits around to mother. 

I confess.  I work too much.  I run too much (or do I?). I probably drink too much.  I enjoy sleeping a lot.  I need time to melt into a book at least twice a year. I am a very vain and selfish person.  Yes, I am. BUT... here is the other but. I love Abbey and Jack with all my heart.

But, I refuse to micro-manage their high school and college educations.  I won't keep track of their calendars or commitments. I do not judge their spiritual life. I am not that mom.  I am not that person.

Yes, I pray for them.

Yes, they share me with many children.

Yes, they share me with my job and necessity to RUN.

I am so not perfect.  I am flawed.  BUT...

The lovely thing about it is that my children and my husband TOTALLY get that.  I don't have to prove my motherly-ness to them or anyone else for that matter.

AND the great thing about my mothering includes some incredible women.  You all know who you are.  I don't have to list you,  and I won't because I am sure to leave someone off.  If you have known my children, you have mothered them. Please do not take this lightly.  There are so many who have been there for both of my children.  I only wish I could've been there for yours.

BUT.... well... maybe in my own way, I was.